I know I just posted my last blogpost an hour ago, but knowing me, I probably would have a 5 months hiatus before I remember to blog again. So, I thought it'd be a great idea to go on a blogging streak instead of playing Microsoft Minesweeper all night. (p/s, in case you're wondering why I'm playing that mundane game, it's because I'm procrastinating. I was hoping that by ignoring the 6 lecture recordings I have, it would miraculously disappear.) Anyways, let's get into the reason why I'm writing this blogpost.
A few days ago, I started reading this book called 'Eleanor and Park' by Rainbow Rowell (I know, I know. The book has been around for a long time now, but I didn't manage to get a hold of it until now, so sue me for being late to the trend.), and it triggered a memory I didn't know was inside of me. It was a memory about my first real crush. It reminded me of what it was like to have a crush in high school, how it was so easy to fall for someone who might not like you back, and that it was worth it to risk being heartbroken. Although I never got a love story like Eleanor and Park, seeing that I was in an all-girls high school, but I was lucky enough to have a few memorable 'moments' with a boy I thought I would have a shot with. And in a true MungBean-manner, it was just classical of me to have turn one of our moments into a one-shot story.
So, without further ado, here is my little one-peice titled "Yours Forever".
*****
It was a hot Saturday afternoon when you decided to bring me
to the pier for a little lunch. After lunch, we decided to have a stroll along
the shore, thinking what to do next since we still had a couple of hours to
kill. While we were walking around aimlessly, we saw a couple, who are
obviously tourists with their huge backpack and expensive-looking DSLR, fooling
around. With the guy taking pictures of his girlfriend walking under the sun
and trying to pose like those posts we saw on Tumblr, we took one look at each
other before starting to giggle. You jokingly said the sight blinded you,
although I know deep down you’d like to do it with your future girlfriend as
well, and you started to walk around blindly. Suddenly an idea popped into my
mind and I took hold of your hand, asking you to trust in me to guide you to
the car. You grasped onto my arm, trusting me to guide you to our car, only to
be brought to a wrong one. Once you realized what happened, you turned around
to get revenge. Our day at the pier ended with you chasing me around like two
lunatics.
Since we still had a couple of hours to kill, and the pier
was starting to get too humid for our likings, we decided to go to the nearby
shopping mall to take comfort from the air conditioning. It was the end of the
year and everywhere, shops were having their year-end sale. You told me once in
one of our late night phone calls that you desperately need a change of
clothes, so I thought going around the mall to scout for some eligible shops
was something we could do to past time. Instead of trying on clothes or
checking the price tag, we somehow manage to make fun of each other’s fashion
sense and ended up trying a bunch of random accessory. It was such a mundane
activity, for two young teenagers to run around the shopping mall and making a
fool of each other, but somehow it had turned out to be one of my favorite time
I had with anyone. Truth be told, if I could turn back time, I’d wish the mall
never had a closing time and we don’t need to be at any other places.
We would have spent the entire afternoon in the mall if it
hadn’t been for that little text we got to go to a makeshift high school meet
up with most of our high school friends. When we finally made our mind up and
agree to go to the meet up together, we stopped by that cheap ice cream place
that sells really good ice cream just so we can shake the heat off of us. While
we were ordering two cups of the store’s famous chocolate sundae, you actually
mistaken the cashier to be someone you had met before. To make matters worse,
you thought it was a friendly gesture to confront the guy, despite being
persuaded by me a couple of times asking you not to. Low and behold, that
cashier had no idea who you were. I admit, if I was put in that kind of social
situation, I would have probably book the next flight to Budapest and change my
identity. But it wasn’t me, it was you. And with some miraculous charm you
seemed to be radiating off to the people around you, we now have a friend who
is a cashier in our favorite ice cream place. I guess this is exactly why I
feel we make a great team. No one in this world is perfect, including you and
me, but you make up for the things that I lack, and vice versa. Call me a
cheesy weeny, but I’d say we are the perfect Dynamic Duo.
To end our little seemingly perfect day together, we went out
for dinner with a handful of our close friends. I didn’t mind the extra company
we had, after all it is nice to do some catching up with old friends who are
going to go to their separate ways. But deep down, I know I would prefer
spending a little more alone time with you. Somehow, I always like the side of
you when you are alone with me more than when you are around with your friends.
Despite so, you still made it clear that you care about me no matter which side
of you I’m with. When our belly was filled with good food and our time was
spent with good company, it was finally time to call it a day. You initially
wanted to drop me back home yourself because of my fear of driving at night,
but since it was too troublesome for the both of us, I decided it was still the
best for me to drive home myself. After making sure I would text you once I’ve
reached home safely, you walked back to your car and waved goodbye.
It was 10pm when I reached home and did what you told me to
do. It was the third time I checked my phone since I last saw you
and my phone battery was only at 78%. It hadn’t dawned on me before, but I was
so busy spending my time with you and the people I care about that I wasn’t
being on my phone the whole time. While I was warming a glass of milk before
going to bed, I started to replay the events that had happened throughout the
day in my head, while grinning idiotically at the microwave. As I wrapped
myself in my blankets like a burrito and snuggled comfortably in my comfort
zone, I started to think if it was possible to have fallen for you a little
more than I already had. With the monotone buzzing sound of the air conditioner
and the occasional vibration from my phone, I silently prayed to God that He’d
let me relive those sweet memories with you in the near future, before drifting
off to sleep.
*****
*****
Ah, how nice it was to be young and in love! Even if it was an unrequited love. Although the ending of our story was not a happy one, but hey! At least I got this little piece out from the whole thing. I hope you all have fun reading it, because I know that I sure did. I had written this piece a few years ago, so it was nice to momentarily relive every moment of it. Now, before the clock strike twelve, I'm going to leave this blogpost with a quote from 'Eleanor and Park'.
"Did she miss him? She wanted to lose herself in him. To tie his arms around her like a tourniquet. If she showed him how much she needed him, he'd run away."
Till next time, my little beansprouts!
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